Hello my dear friends. I have been away for quite a while. I gave up on my passion of writing for quite some time to work on myself and realize my dreams. I am back now and enthusiastic about writing again.
I sit here in my car after midnight on the shores of beautiful Beirut, and ponder about the years that have passed. I am the age of 25 and I realize now more than ever that everything changes in life and it is inevitable.
Loved ones pass on, friends you have known for years let go of you, you change jobs, you live in different countries. We try to endure inevitable change, no matter how harsh it is.
But I have concluded something. life is a schizophrenic bitch. It slaps you in the face when you’re not looking. It creeps up on you when you least expect it, like when taking a crap.
I have lost many people I truly care about over the years due to my previous immaturity and hang ups, and also due to differences between us. But I guess change is inevitable and if they will it that way then let it be.
You change. You grow old. You realize who your true friends are. You stick to family, which is the most important thing I believe.
If I had only one wish, it would be to control time. Unfortunately no one has created a time machine yet. I’m still waiting by the way so people please, work on it.
But I have learned so far that no matter what you go through in life, with all the ups and downs, with all the bullshit sprinkled on top, you just have to be grateful I guess. Be happy with what you have and how you live. Life is much harsher for a bigger majority everywhere.
I can’t be mad at the schizophrenic bitch I call life anymore. I must endure inevitable change and deal with it. As should you. Don’t expect anything from anyone or anything anymore, it will only bring you down.
But I will say this. Find one passion. One single passion that will control you and set you free from the mongrel we call life. You will enjoy life much more. Which is what I’m planning to do. Until next time my friends, stay well and happy.